Imperfect , on the road to perfection

Im soooo ttiiireed....

2006-03-30T04:54:00.000-08:00

Been sleeping in classes these few days... just cant take it... lol ... tired until ..haiz..nvm la...hahas....hmmm ... i got a feelin... i know its gonna happen but who cares =x

I dunno if i should have thought about that... cause i always think sth like that will happen...it always happens...so dao mei...nxt time i better not tink abt wats gonna happen T_T...

Today's school was kinda boring...even though no homework came after me yea? ... sighs... i just hope it wont happen yea? ... just dun ask me wats "it" ... anyway..tomorrow got band performance... sian tired like crap still have to perform...

Nvm...i tomorrow go sch sleep =P then got energy to perforrm le... haiz...

my finger arhz... another one tio hit by bball again -_-... one after another, bball hates me i tink...

wanted to buy sth to giv someone de...then i decided nxt week then buy =x...i scared buy le this week "pok" ar... become no $$ ...

Then tok with jj till about 4+ lorz... he keep saying about 3 choose one ...hahas...like his nick like that...

ok ...as i said...i seriously think today is useless...kinda like wasted my time in world of warcraft waiting for a battleground that never happened...hours and hours... so... nothing much to tok abt...

Just...haiz... now i really understand wats called pain... lol... its painful to know or actually just kinda guess only xD ... but nvm... i must be a man to my words... i will peservere... even though now its stressful and hard ... it may be 1 month...or maybe like 3 more months... Both has its adverse effects... so... either one is ok for me =]

Anyway...gtg =] watch star shine shine then watch da chang jin...then sleep... hope tomorrow wont be tiring... if not i will be sleeping for a long time again... sighs...

Kimi ga suki da to sakebitai

2006-03-27T04:22:00.000-08:00

Mabushii hizashi wo se ni hashiridasu machi no naka
tatakareta itsumo no yo ni kata wo
Kimi ni muchu na koto ni wake nantenainoni
sono ude wa karamu koto wa nai

Itsuno ma ni ka hitomi ubawareta hajimatta
hanasanai yuruganai Crazy for you

*Kimi ga suki da to sakebitai ashita wo kaete miyo
Kooritsuiteku toki wo buchikowashitai
Kimi ga suki dato sakebitai yuki de fumidaso
Kono atsui omoi wo uketomete hoshii

Zawameita furoa ni nigiwau teburugoshi
nanigenai kimo no shisen ni yoishire
Koi wo shiteiru yo de odorasareteru yo na
takanaru kodo ni mo uso hatsukenai

Itsu ni nareba kawaru kono modokashii yujo
todoketai tashikametai I take you away

Kimi ga suki da to sakebitai nanimo kamo nugisute
Kokoro tokasu kotoba wo mitsuke dashitai
Kimi ga suki da to sakebitai konya wa kaesanai
Mitsumeru dake no hibi nante owawari ni shiyo
I wanna cry for you

*repeat

I wanna cry for you

Wa sian...this song so nice... too bad the band no longer around...hahas...japanese band... anyway here's the translation =]

bright sunlight on my back - started my run in the center of town
my shoulder was hit, like always, by (you)
you were preoccupied - yet there was no reason
your arm was not linked to mine

and before I realized it, you stole my eyes when I looked at you
I'm not letting go (since?) there's no trembling - CRAZY FOR YOU

Chorus:
I want to shout (that) I love you - let us try to change tomorrow
I want to smash this freezing (moment in) time where I'm not with you
I want to shout (that) I love you - so let us walk out bravely
I want to receive and hold onto those warm emotions

at the floor - opposite me at the eventful table
I was lost with you looking casually at me
feels like I'm in love with you yet it's like I'm being toyed with
can't lie no more because of my pounding heart

when it's time this frustrating friendship will change
I want acceptance I want assurance - I TAKE YOU AWAY

I want to shout (that) I love you - let's go and leave everything (behind)
I'll find the words to touch your heart
I want to shout (that) I love you - tonight, I won't let you go home
let's bring the days of gazing to an end
I WANNA CRY FOR YOU

Repeat Chorus

I WANNA CRY FOR YOU

hahas...so touching...

Lets start with what happened today shall we?

Hahas...ok...interesting parts only ok? gtg and do some homework as well as...watch some tv...=]hmm...today the school was kinda boring...esp. mess lim's lesson...practically slept through it...dunno why...just couldnt take it...hmm...ok...after sch...went to eat lunch with bendicky,beeleng,nicole and pearleen...

Wasnt that bad...for the first time some people didnt eat veri veri veri slowly...well...the neoprint session was quite dumb...out of 12 photos...ahaha.... only a few was Zhen Jing de, others was all u know...u will know if u see the photos =x, kinda waste of money when u do that...hahas...

Ok...not that bad until benedict pissed me off thrice... first...not that...second...made me get scolded...third...keep saying "im pissing you" -_- which is totally lame...hahas...

Oh...tuition time!...

Over!...ok...then played some games... chatted with some people...then started to write this post...kinda a boring day yea?If only there are much more interesting days...but i doubt so...everyday's life is more sian than today ... so ...i rather say today is brighter than other days =]

yet again ! Kimi ga suki da to sakebitai =P

I'm nothing more than a person, but u are more than feelings to me...

2006-03-25T07:01:00.000-08:00

Well... ok , been quite suay this few days ... stupid finger in bandage now cause of stupid basketball...cannot play until my finger gets well...sian... will be quite long before i can play basketball again =\.

Hmmm... lets see... band competition coming soon.... work hard for it! After that... can relax lo...hahas... sian diaoz... play DotA play until abit sian... so... stop awhile come put a post lor...

Haiz... dunno wat to write leh... nothing much happenin this few days... i will post when anything happens ba...

But for the mean time! SLAMDUNK OPENING E SONG ROCKS !!
And... Seeing that smile is more than i wish for a day =x its better than being happy too!

I was late, it was my mistake...

2006-03-07T04:51:00.001-08:00

Mes lim... meslim... u will truly regret that u ever cheated me... u told me i fail history overall and u gave me a wat? C6 49.8? pass wat...if round up =x...Aiya...stupid things that i dun wanna remember...

Oh ya..and since i fail lit lets compose a peom ya? Make sure next time going into pros and cons in poems NOT PLAYS .. i must do better...dun wanna get 49.5/100... i will kill myself if that happens la...hahas

Everlasting love:

Eternal love is always promised,
Very end and till the end of the world,
Everlasting love.
Remember the days when
Love was just like
A Little cherry bomb,
So red and sweet.
Till I realised,
It was me that was deluding myself,
N it wasnt you but me,
Gulping down a cherry that is empty.

Hmmm... wats that i also dunno la...just happen to cross my mind so i anyhow type ...hahas...here comes another!

Stress oh stress:

Stress was overpowering you,
That was what u told me.
Reciting the lines
Extraordinaraly told to me.
Stress oh stress if you could hear my plea,
Strike me but let her off...

Aiya.. i think i know wat u thinking now.... must be what the hell am i saying right? .... actually i think i know what i mean... but i dunno if the different people im writing to is reading the blog ... o.0 last one eh? hahas....today in the litreature mode , someone knock me on my brains!

Feeling on the star:

First meeting you on the star,
I got a feeling I never understood until now,
I wished I understood what i was feeling then.
Ate a cherry ate a bomb,
Eating all the illusions set before my eyes,
Splattered on my face are not red,
But lessons that finally,
Taught me what i never knew.
Now,
Was i late?
I was,
I wanted to do it
But not now,
Not yet,
Not till its over,
Not till its over.

Aiyo...this one i wrote the longest one... halfway tio stuck...

Hahas..ok lit mode over... now lets go to hair waxing... tomorrow gonna bring wax...my hair sure become kanasai... kiam chai nia la... hahas... ok la...now my hair so short look like watever right?

就是开不了口让她知道
我一定会呵护着你也逗你笑
你对我有多重要我后悔没让你知道
安静的听你撒娇看你睡着一直到老
就是开不了口让她知道
就是那么简单几句我办不到
整颗心悬在半空我只能够远远看着
这些我都做得到但那个人已经不是我

Straight translation to english:

Jiu shi kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao
Wo yi ding hui he hu zhao ni ye dou ni xiao
Ni dui wo you duo zhong yao wo he wei mian rang ni zhi dao
An jing de ting ni xa jiao kan ni shui zhao yi zhi dao lao
Jiu shi kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao
Jiu shi na me jian dan ji ju wo ban bu dao
Zhen ke xing xian zai ban kong wo zhi neng gou yuan yuan kan zhe
Zhe xie wo dou ban de dao dan na ge ren yi jing bu shi wo......

Gonna post this song in my blog... cause its wat im feeling... even though not all of e song =x

On the Swirve Personality Test, I am a Champion.
My Characteristics Chart:


Extroverted		Introverted
Sensitive		Intuitive
Judgemental		Perceptive
Thinker		Feeler

Read more about Champions or take the Test yourself!

---> me!

Changing is difficult...

2006-03-06T01:38:00.000-08:00

For now... changing is still difficult...wait for band comp to be over! I promise myself that i will be better =]. For sure.

Well... my hair cut sucks, then today my hair went through surgery! wa lao eh! went through 6 people's hand , 6 surgeries -_- . It became total crap but i still think the last one that Liu made was better than some people made one...lol...

Hmm...sian homework... later tuition i haven do sia...hahas..i must jia you and finish.MUST FINISH!

Hmm...ye qu! so nice... hahas...trying to remember lyrics but it seems to take forever cause of jay's singing style...kinda cant hear e words ah!

K la...today's post will be this short cause i need go do homework lo =If only homework lets me off...sighs...for now i will be playing less games ba...i hope i stick to this...games not=life for now! for now =)

Oh ya...today's neoprint...haha...damn funny sia...my face like abit stupid...but nvm la hor=]
Everyone was craving for the picture tat pearleen stuck out her tongue ... i didnt get it thou but i dun mind ... wo bu ru di yu shui ru di yu =]

Ok...i finished my hw so i came to edit this post =] make it longer yea... hahas...i finally found my maths 8B after thinking that i lost it ... i just told pearleen i lost it and next minute i found it ! My lucky star eh! hahas... if i had to do it again i will be so damn sian...do b4 liao do again...some more maths take up so much time... hmmm...im gonna try to stay away from games for the moment...or at least play less... i m gonna sleep early today ! maybe about 9+ to regain the energy that i lost this few days..haha...

STELLE TAN ZHI JIE! U REMEMBER THIS! lol...must thank me lor...i paid so much for your gift sia...today i used up like $24...i work for 6 hours get $20 now use $24 ... used up the money that i earned while working...so ...hahas...nvm.... still got enough for e week =]

This saturday no band! but next week gonna be so damn tiring =(... tuba so heavy..lol... just hope that i can survive training... not to make sure the whole band improve! competition coming ! jiayou!

---The end---

Love love love?

2006-03-04T05:31:00.000-08:00

When you love someone, the person is not perfect.
No one is perfect.
And when u love, u love someone that is iMperfect but perfect to you.
Loving the imperfectness =)

sian diaoz, xin hao u gay , ask people help u always scold them , help u liao still buay song go scold , scold until people buay song people next time also wont help u right , act as if u boss like that.

Dun talk about him liao ,talk about him also sian diaoz, people help u u buay song scold other people for no reason happy la! Act act.

And hor yan xiang dun depression yet la, hahas, people like me not yet depression u depression first =x , dun say u weaker than me and stuffs la , no one is weaker than me -_- its ok de la, everyone also got like that before right , hmmm , even stelle also like that =x always tink about zhi kai but cannot get right!

Think about it this way la , even i also like that , but its ok right? haha be happy la, see u sad veri de pitiful de u know, xD. hmmm , even if u weak also stronger than me ma , eat chicken wing in left cubical can le la.

so lets seee...today de newspaper not tat bad only tat liu got bullied cause jj dun let them go up the lift , lol . aiya , only do for 1 hour nia, dunno why school give us 6 hours cip also.

Hmmm , not much happening today also so... let end it here!

yan xiang! its not a crime to love! dun worry! ... u tio depression dun kill yourself at least let me kill , so i also can die together. =]

Wow...bad day for me...

2006-03-02T06:25:00.000-08:00

BAD BAD BAD....

CRAP CRAP CRAP...

Wat else can i say about this shit day?

First, i fail my history overall, ok not that bad , i had that coming.

Then , the stupid 300 bus make me wait for near 30 minutes? wat total crap?

LASTLY , the stupid long john silver kia, i pay 5 dollars tell me i never pay , sian diaoz , felt like calling manager, but see so many people behind me, all hungry hungry , let them eat la hor =x

So at last i paid $9.10 for a $4.10 meal.

Ok , thats totally bad, $5 can pay 1/5 of the month for wow's fee! ARRRHGGHGHGHGHGH...

zzz... ok , but got a bit a bit a little bit of good thing that happen la, that is in world of warcraft!

Wooohooooooooo! i finally got scarlet monastry's quest done, then the mage so funny, aoe 20-40 mobs per time, wipe once nia, so not that bad =]

Then hor, sometimes train also sian , stupid alliance always come and let me own , then sore losers go find friends come and gank me , from 2 on 1 to become 4 on 1 cause i still win the 2 -_-
I priest somemore la, tell the few idiots go and gay, waste my time nia.

Aiya, lets not talk about wow, lets talk about... homework?

Wat bloody crap, must do art, art = sian, draw this draw that to some people got meaning to me not tat bad la, i can see other peoples drawing la , but see my own = simi lj , just cant help asking myself all the time " Ah hao ah, wat are u drawing man?"

aiya
so who cares heck care

i just try to finish art then i go sleep lo ... zzzzzzzz

Anyway, good nitez.

*turns off light*

yea yea i know...

2006-02-28T05:32:00.000-08:00

i know si buay damn long never post liao la...but dun hav to say me... lol ... i no time ma, already never do work le u know? oh ya...that reminds me, i was playing world of warcraft just now , =P , i anyhow kill one mob he gave me rare item sia =]] , haiz, also veri sian, kns one, fail maths 40.4 overall, so what if i passed common test, lol.

Sian diaoz sia, dunno wat to do also , now wow server maintainence, dun wanna do homework, no spirit to do , not in the mood, wat else? lol... tired...zzz later i going sleep soon le la.

Band must jia you ar... 1 month ++ more competition le orh! I know i myself not doing that good la , eh! stop looking at me la! But i know we can do it right! Just put in hard work , finish band comp and then happy liao , but then also cannot forget studies, studies also must good!

Aiya, ok...stop talking about band le...hahas, today geraldine left for australia i think , then got *party* at my class, some people sad sad, some people neutral some people no feeling? lol...so funny one, anyway , sean seem gay in the stupid blazer.

Today play abit of basketball only, play until sian, no feeling u see...hahas no feeling cannot do anything de u know... hmmm...

Lets talk about songs! yea! Top hits on my computer though =x.

1. Jue Jiang by Wu yue tian!
2. Jian jian dan dan by lin jun jie! not jun jie from my class kay.
3. Mu nai yi by lin jun jie!
4. Huo yuan jia by jay chou!
5. Ye qu by jay chou!

This 5 can le la the others never listen much also, now lets post the lyrics for jue jiang!

五月天
倔强
当我和世界不一样那就让我不一样
坚持对我来说就是以刚克刚
我如果对自己不行如果对自己说谎
即使你不原谅我也不能原谅
最美的愿望一定最疯狂
我就是我自己的神在我活的地方
我和我最后的倔强握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能绝望
我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强

对爱我的人别紧张我的固执很善良
我的手越肮脏眼神越是发光
你不在乎我的过往看到了我的翅膀
你说被火烧过才能出现凤凰
逆风的方向更适合飞翔
我不怕千万人阻挡只怕自己投降
我和我最后的倔强握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能绝望
我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强
就这一次让我大声唱
lalalala...
就算失望不能绝望...
lalalalala...
就这一次我和我的倔强

If u wan listen can go here, wait ar! searching....

http://fs21.139.com/0/224/hot072/sound/200582733759277.mp3

k ba...going to sleep soon le...bye bye /wave...oops ... too much wowin.

good nitez...

...

2006-02-02T01:38:00.000-08:00

I know i damn long never post le, but cannot blame me right? So much homework to do and so much injuries...first the stupid finger , then on CNY i play majhong and i moved my leg up accidentally very hard and the "money box"'s edge hit near my knee there causing my leg to bleed...put plaster for 1 day to let the wound close but now still bleeding...crap la..

Then hor, siao one, so much homework...no time to sleep , LOL ... haiz...now...basketballl!! So fun except for times when they all started to play rough for dunno wat reasons so we all joined in the rough"fun" ... so... in the end of the rough matches alot of people tio injured.

Blue black here and a blue black there...lol... well...nice to play anyway, but not when u get injured and watsoever.

Well, as far as games and songs are concerned , World of warcraft , Warcraft 3 : TFT are games that i usually play and... songs? From the inside by linkin park sounds nice. Crucify my love by X japan.Bring me to life by evanscence and of course my all time favourite an jing by jay chou =]

Sian larhs...

2006-01-26T04:15:00.000-08:00

so crappy de tomorrow, still must go sch, almost CNY le nehs, and then hor , give us homework on CNY like we will do like that, need to go this house go that house still like that give homework.

My hand ar, so pain, dunno wat happen , play basketball then suddenly my fourth finger(lucky not third) got blue black!!! then now cannot bend le, its size become as fat as a thumb... lol.. pain like siao, but still can play bball larhs, cause dun really use hand use more of palm, palm of ru lai! , aiya, today just post abit can le larhs... lol .. tired le... some more ... no one talk to me on msn, zzz...

Blog song!

2006-01-25T03:46:00.000-08:00

Nice right?
Its full metal alchemist song, Melissa.
Anyway, heres the lyrics.

English translated

Cleave apart the memories of those
faraway days with your hands
End the breath of sadness
Come on, pierce through my chest
made anxious by love

Looking at the sky in which the tomorrow will come
, I don't know what to do with
my heart that is only lost
Birds by my side flew away-
I wonder if they found light somewhere

Come now, won't you let me
ride on your back, too?
Then keep far away from the
kindess that I deserted at the highest place

Cleave apart the memories of those
faraway days with your hands
End the breath of sadness
Come on, pierce through my chest
made anxious by love

I saw off birds into the dark evening,
the wind strokes the me who merely crawls the ground
I won't say that I want wings;
I want to become melissa leaves
dancing in midair, at least

I've already tried to keep standing many times
But that's probably not the answer, right?
Cause then I won't go against this wind

Take the key with your hands,
you won't be hesitating, right?
Even if you were wrong,
if it seems that it'd never open again
Come on, end it with
the sound of a lock falling

A soul that cannot be
saved drifts and disappears
In the instant it
vanishes, it shines faintly
Now, it creates a
night with a full moon.

Guess u guys dont
need the japanese version.
But in any ways if u do,
request it from me and i will post it =).

About my day on 24th jan

2006-01-24T07:21:00.000-08:00

School as per normal , history teacher talked crap, did a crap worksheet and i didnt do cause my friend did almost the whole thing and the teacher gave him a golden star(Lester foo yong cheng)! silver star to benedict leong who did 1 question! Next, p.e which was boring like hell, captain's ball captain's ball... crap ball more like it.

Well i'm 165 cm , 54.5 kg but does that sound like it? i think the weight + height thingy was spoilt.
RECESSS!
RINNNGGGGG! SAVED BY THE BELL!
Basketball was kinda fun, did a few lay ups until it became a 12 man game, 12 man going for a ball o.O.
Became a unplayable game , but well...
Next, reading period, saved by chairman thingy, and when i got back i read about the guy with 350 staples on the skull or is it the so called sculp? Cool man, 350 staples. but its kinda lame right? watever!
then form class, lots and lots of things, but i cant remember even one so who cares?
then chinese, gosh, a compo in a period, almost killed all of my brain cells
BUT
thats not all, D&T did it, it killed all my brain cells, i suck at drawing and the teacher gave isometric and wat oblique ar... i do until brain burst, all dun even look like the original one.
Then homework period, the worst period of all, just sit there fake fake doing work , did a bit though, just that little bit.

BAND

Well, it was all about gimmicks, i saw all the red knees and it was cool! Well, i had one too xD.
Nothing much happened except that suffian was so nice to poke, poke and poke and poke, so nice =).

Home

Dinner as usual, and bathe, when i came out, i went to play world of warcraft for 10 minutes? LOL. Then i played a few rounds of Defense of the ancients(DOTA).
All the losers left and it ruined my day.
Well well, then it came to creating this blog, it took me years... i was so noob i went to wei en for help, but , well, i just noticed something, mozilla firefox hates my blog, notice the right side--->
IF u have mozilla u will see the words knocking into the white line whereas if u are using internet explorer it will not. TIME TO SLEEP. tomorrow is zombie day for me =\

Tears

2006-01-24T06:58:00.000-08:00

Loneliness your silent whisper
Fills a river of tears through the night
Through the night
Memory you never let me cry
And you, you never said good-bye
Sometimes our tears blinded the love
We lost our dreams along the way
But i never thought you'd trade your souls to the fate
Never thought u did leave me alone
Time through the rain has set me free
Sands of time will keep your memory
Love everlasting fades away
Alive within your beatless heart

It's a song-peom,
so do not feel bad or lousy if u do not understand what it is talking about.
IF u understand, feel it =)

I'm sorrry i can't be perfect!!!!

2006-01-24T06:20:00.000-08:00

Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
Im never gonna be good
Enough for you
I cant pretend that
Im alright
And you cant change me

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
Im sorry
I cant be Perfect
Now its just too late
And we cant go back
Im sorry
I cant be Perfect

Imperfect in normal life as well as gaming, everyone makes mistake,
be open and forgive them all =)
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